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Wanda。”
“Mmm；” I sighed； half asleep。
“Next time she raids…” Kyle said； somewhere on the other side of Jared’s body。 A big yawn
interrupted his sentence。 “Next time she raids； I’m ing； too。”
“She’s not going out again；” Ian answered； his body tensing。 I brushed my hand against his face； trying to
soothe him。
“Of course not；” I murmured to him。 “I don’t have to go anywhere unless I’m needed。 I don’t mind
staying in here。”
“I’m not talking about keeping you prisoner； Wanda；” Ian explained； irritated。 “You can go anywhere
you want as far as I’m concerned。 Jogging on the highway； if you’d like that。 But not a raid。 I’m talking
about keeping you safe。”
“We need her；” Jared said； his voice harder than I wanted to hear it。
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“Fine？ Jamie would have died without her。 She can get things for us that no one else can。”
“She’s a person； Jared； not a tool。”
“I know that。 I didn’t say that —”
“’S up to Wanda； I’d say。” Jeb interrupted the argument just as I was about to。 My hand was holding
Ian down now； and I could feel Jared’s body shifting under my head as he prepared to get up。 Jeb’s
words froze them in place。
“You can’t leave it up to her； Jeb；” Ian protested。
“Why not？ Seems like she’s got her own mind。 ’S it your job to make decisions for her？”
“I’ll tell you why not；” Ian grumbled。 “Wanda？”
“Yes； Ian？”
“Do youwant to go out on raids？”
“If I can help； of course I should go。”
“That’s not what I asked； Wanda。”
I was quiet for a moment； trying to remember his question to see how I’d gotten it wrong。
“See； Jeb？ She never takes into account her own wants—her own happiness； her ownhealth； even。
She’d do anything we asked her to； even if it got her killed。 It’s not fair to ask her things the way we’d
ask each other。We stop to think about ourselves。 She doesn’t。”
It was quiet。 No one answered Ian。 The silence dragged on until I felt pelled to speak for myself。
“That’s not true；” I said。 “I think about myself all the time。 And I… Iwant to help。 Doesn’t that count？ It
made me so happy to help Jamie tonight。 Can’t I find happiness the wayI want to？”
Ian sighed。 “See what I mean？”
“Well； I can’t tell her she can’t go if she wants to；” Jeb said。 “She’s not a prisoner anymore。”
“But we don’t have to ask。”
Jared was very quiet through all this。 Jamie was quiet； too； but I was pretty sure he was asleep。 I knew
Jared wasn’t； his hand was tracing random patterns on the side of my face。 Glowing； burning patterns。
“You don’t need to ask；” I said。 “I volunteer。 It really wasn’t… frightening。 Not at all。 The other souls
are very kind。 I’m not afraid of them。 It was almost too easy。”
“Easy？ Cutting your —”
second。 “Right？” I checked。
Ian groaned。 “If she goes； I’m going； too；” he said in a bleak tone。 “Someonehas to protect her from
herself。”
“And I’ll be there to protect the rest of us fromher； ” Kyle said with a chuckle。 Then he grunted and
said； “Ow。”
I was too tired to lift my head to see who had hit Kyle now。
“And I’ll be there to bring you all back alive；” Jared murmured。
CHAPTER 47
Employed
This is too easy。 It’s not really even fun anymore；” Kyle plained。
“You wanted to e；” Ian reminded him。
He and Ian were in the windowless back of the van； sorting through the nonperishable groceries and
toiletries I’d just collected from the store。 It was the middle of the day； and the sun was shining on
Wichita。 It was not as hot as the Arizona desert； but it was more humid。 The air swarmed with tiny flying
bugs。
Jared drove toward the highway out of town； carefully keeping below the speed limit。 This continued to
irritate him。
“Getting tired of shopping yet； Wanda？” Ian asked me。
“No。 I don’t mind it。”
“You always say that。 Isn’t thereanything you mind？”
“I mind… being away from Jamie。 And I mind being outside； a little bit。 During the day especially。 It’s
like the opposite of claustrophobia。 Everything is too open。 Does that bother you； too？”
“Sometimes。 We don’t go out during the day much。”
“At least she gets to stretch her legs；” Kyle muttered。 “I don’t know why you want to hearher
plain。”
“Because it’s so unmon。 Which makes it a nice change from listening toyou plain。”
I tuned them out。 Once Ian and Kyle got started； they usually went on for a while。 I consulted the map。
“Oklahoma City next？” I asked Jared。
“And a few small towns on the way； if you’re up for it；” he answered； eyes on the road。
Jared rarely lost his focus when on a raid。 He didn’t relax into relieved banter the way Ian and Kyle did
every time I pleted another mission successfully。 It made me smile when they used that word—
mission。That sounded so formidable。 In reality； it was just a trip to the store。 Just like I’d done a hundred
times in San Diego when I was only feeding myself。
Like Kyle said； it was too easy to provide any excitement。 I pushed my cart up and down the aisles。 I
smiled at the souls who smiled at me； and I filled my cart with things that would last。 I usually grabbed a
few things that wouldn’t； for the men hiding in the back of the van。 Premade sandwiches from the
deli—things like that for our meals。 And maybe a treat or two。 Ian had a fondness for mint chocolate chip
ice cream。 Kyle liked caramel sweets best。 Jared ate anything he was offered； it seemed as if he’d given
up favorites many years before； embracing a life where wants were unwele and even needs were
carefully assessed before they were met。 Another reason he was good at this life—he saw priorities
uncontaminated by personal desire。
Occasionally； in the smaller towns； someone would notice me； would speak to me。 I had my lines down
so well that I could probably have fooled a human by this point。
“Hi there。 New in town？”
“Yes。 Brand…new。”
“What brings you to Byers？”
I was always careful to check the map before I left the van； so the town’s name would be familiar。
“My partner travels a lot。 He’s a photographer。”
“How wonderful！ An Artist。 Well； there’s certainly a lot of beautiful land around here。”
Originally； I’d been the Artist。 But I’d found that throwing in the information that I was already partnered
saved me some time when I was speaking to males。
“Thank you so much for your help。”
“You’re very wele。 e back soon。”
I’d only had to speak to a pharmacist once； in Salt Lake City； after that； I’d known what to look for。
A sheepish smile。“I’m not sure I’m getting the right nutrition。 I can’t seem to avoid the junk food。
This body has such a sweet tooth。”
“You need to be wise； Thousand Petals。 I know it’s easy to give in to your cravings； but try to
think about what you’re eating。 In the meantime； you should take a supplement。”
Health。 Such an obvious title on the bottle； it made me feel silly for asking。
“Would you like the ones that taste like strawberries or the ones that taste like chocolate？”
And the pleasant soul named Earthborn gave me both of the large bottles。
Not very challenging。 The only fear or sense of danger I ever felt came when I thought of the small
cyanide pill that I always kept in an easily reachable pocket。 Just in case。
“You should get new clothes in the next town；” Jared said。
“Again？”
“Those are looking a little creased。”
“Okay；” I agreed。 I didn’t like the excess； but the steadily growing pile of dirty laundry wouldn’t go to
waste。 Lily and Heidi and Paige were all close to my size； and they would be grateful for something new
to wear。 The men rarely bothered with things like clothes when they were raiding。 Every foray was
life…or…death—clothes were not a priority。 Nor were the gentle soaps and shampoos that I’d been
collecting at every store。
“You should probably clean up； too；” Jared said with a sigh。 “Guess that means a hotel tonight。”
Keeping up appearances was not something t